I've always had a very high sex drive and appetite. Taking meds have made that a challenge at times over the years, my sex drive stayed in tact, but it hasn't always been easy to hit that big O. I went seriously two years not being able to reach an orgasm when they put me on a high dosage of lyrica. That was a nightmare! Oh boy was I relieved when I discovered what was keeping me from getting there, and I vowed to never touch lyrica again, no matter how much pain I was in!
Well, the last year or so, average time to reach an orgasm time hasn't been so bad. We had gone through a phase at one point where it'd take me a good hour or more, and nights where we both got left frustrated and me left with no release.
Now that I am off the meds? 7 minutes. Tops. And much to my surprise and pleasure the other night, we needed no help of any toys or anything either! Talk about this being a huge bonus to all I have done to get off of these dang meds! I was... tickled. In more ways than one! And my sex drive is very awake and alert.
I have also had a lot of moments of... deep thinking I suppose I'll call it. Almost like, my brain is waking back up. Have had a lot of moments where the stupidest thing will make me get emotional or teary eyed. And that very rarely happens to me! Only when I was pregnant did I ever really get like that. Never been one of those, cry to a movie or commercial type girls. Heck, I've always been one of has a hard time letting myself cry. Daddy often will give me release spankings, being sometimes Him pushing me to tears via spanking will be the only way I can get 'that' type of release.
All in all, I feel a lot of progress has been made here, and glad I made the decision to stop all meds. It's going to be a lot of adjusting still, learning new ways to deal with pain levels and such. But, hopeless and frustrated moments aside, and times of feeling like I've been a puppet for a long time.. I feel much more alive.. more, myself.
I now want to refocus on my submission, and get all of me back on track. Getting there...Yes.. progress, baby. Progress!