An Ordered Letter...

There are times that I, don't know why (I didn't know why, but after writing and thinking, came to a realization at the end of the letter) - but I start to feel out of place. I still follow the rules/protocols etc. But, I just feel - not quite as deep into my submission as I normally do, or should. I asked Sir for guidance on this last night, and He gave me the task of writing Him a letter - explaining what I like,love and enjoy about being His submissive and slave. He ordered it be done here.

Dear Daddy,

    In the time that You made me your full submissive and slave, I have learned so much about myself.. and You. To answer the question of - what do I like, love and enjoy about being Your slave and submissive, I am finding is a rather deep explanation. For I truly do not know if there are any real words that sum up how it feels to be completely owned. To give to another, complete submission - surrender and control. Not only over ones body, but their emotions - well being - feelings - heart and mind, is a feeling that I cannot grasp just one word for. We always had, from the time we were friends - to the time you made me Your girl all those years ago, such a deep connection.

   You know me better than I know myself. You know what I need, before I myself realize it. You complete things within me, that I cannot complete on my own. You give me the freedom to explore the things inside of myself, that I couldn't explore before. You help me to not fight the things I sometimes struggle to accept, and learn how to embrace them. You allow me the ultimate pleasure and gift of serving You - and doing what feels so very natural to me, in being all You wish of me, in making You happy, and serving all of Your wants/needs and desires.. nothing pleases more than doing so, and I could not imagine going through life doing it any other way.

  There are no single words that describe all of these feelings - in how grateful, content and complete I feel with belonging to You in all these ways - in *every* way. I love You having all of the power and control... I love the structure...I love the completeness... I love that in You owning me, it makes me feel a way I never dreamed possible, and never knew existed. I love that we have found a way to make what was already an amazing relationship that much better and right.

  I have been pondering a lot, why I get to feeling this way - and feel that is has nothing to do with dislike, or being unhappy or discontent. What I realized is, when I do start to feel this way, it's often when I am really needing that release that I struggle to get in any other way, but from Your Dominance - when I am really needing to feel Your control. When life gets hectic, it's often easy to fall into the habits we grew up with. In my case, that would be - being stubborn and strong, not asking for help, and trying to do everything by myself. It's at times like this, that I know that I need to stop, breathe, and ask for Your guidance. Or kneel before You, and admit that I have fallen into old habits from time to time. 

I will be at the foot of the bed this evening, waiting for further instruction. Thank You, for everything that You do, and everything You are to Your girl. 

 Your brat  xx


Gah, this is so corny. But, true none the less. lol - and I am ordered to post it. So, here it is. I will now be over there somewhere hiding. x_x

I hope everyone is having a good week! xx
brat